cheerfull poetry

Turns out I’m unable to write any kind of positive poetry. And when I try, it turns out cringe worthy. I tried once. And that was the result. When I try to write poetry without really trying to make it this or that way, it naturally leans toward dark and depressing. I don’t know why, but it is so. Even the ones that have a happy ending are mostly depressing. And the ones that lean toward humor are full of dark and morbid humor instead of the light-hearted┬ákind. It’s weird. And it’s not like I have no happy things happen in my life. I do, nice things happen, but somehow, ┬ámy writing is more on the dark side. Maybe because they have cookies? Must be! There is no other explanation.


fuck up

well, at least my civil war is no longer fucked up… and by fucked up i mean that i tried to restart it using comands. didnt go so well. and considering theres this one mod that only works after finishing the civil war, well, according to the author of it. and the prerequisite is that youre on the side of stormcloaks and my character accidentally joined the legion before even knowing the consequences… it was my first char and well… i only decided that i really like ulfric stormcloak alive well after the fact.

so, fortunately, i had another game, but it was male and all wrong. so i had to go to showracemenu and fix him. only it was crashing on me so kudos to the author of precache killer for showracemenu. it was the only thing that let me change the gender of the character. still means i have to redo the companions and the dark brotherhood, but at least i won’t have to do the dawnguard all over again.

though i will have to build anohter manor as the first one is a bit fucked up. no trophy room. and now i can have a fox trophy. thanks to a mod!


and here i was, only about a month ago, thinking that oblivion was superior to skyrim… yeah… not so much. but hey! nothing beats fanfiction! especially those where the civil war is completely reworked!

though they should stop with all the female dragonborns fics. theres not enough slash between ulfric and a male dragonborn. or ulfric and a character from different fandom, but one that is a male.


the one mod everyone wants does not exist! the one where balgruuf joins ulfric against the empire!

had to redo the whole game becaue my best character stupidly joined empire and then couldn’T switch sides anymore… And I don’T want to kill ulfric!!!!!

If i have to pick between ulfric and balgruuf, then balgruuf will lsoe!

if martin septim were there, he would have been able to make them all play nice with each other! I’m sure… but he died in the oblivion crisis…

I got a weird mix of fav characters from oblivion and skyrim… mainly lucien lechance, gray fox, martin septim, sheogorath and from skyrim jarl ulfric and to a lesser extent balgruuf. and parthanax and odaviing. whatever the speling on those two is. And i like ralof too.


so yeah. the one thing i want is for balgruuf to be able to join stormcloaks!


There’s a Resident Evil 6 post in the making, but I’m probably gonna take my time with it. In the meantime, I’m gonna try to think of some more things I could write about. Most of them will probably be related to SSO.



Today was another halloween update for SSO. I’m looking forward to playing it. HOpefully, it will be goood. I’ve lived through too many lame updates to date. So hopefully, this will not be so. Last week was great and hopefully, this will be too.